It's an existential question..All of us have become philosophers at one or the other point of time..We all have had that sigh of disinterest on such a topic when picked for a deeper thinking.been there done that kind of negligence does creep in. But with the time when one is exceptionally challenging one's own system of existence.

Whats actually beneath all the expressions i know not
Whats compelling me to live the way i choose to or choose not to
Where is the destination which will give me a relief of a final arrival
Where is that point of exhaltation which has left behind all parallel

when is the time that who what why where and whens are all not sumising any more!